Pastorette's Progress

How neat it is when we see the hand of God in our lives! I have been struggling so much these last couple of weeks. Struggling to the point of even questioning my salvation. I kept thinking of the verse, "The prayers of a righteous man availeth much, " and I was constantly praying and feeling like I was getting no answers. Hence my thoughts that I wasn't converted. After spending several weeks having quiet times - reading and praying and doing everything I thought I was supposed to be doing, I couldn't understand why God wasn't doing what I thought He should be doing. Seriously! ( I had a Job moment after he finished complaining to God!!!) - did I really think that God actually owed me for doing what I need to be doing anyway?? That my friend is the power of sin and what can happen when we let Satan affect our thoughts!!! I thought that because my life wasn't getting easier so to speak, that God couldn't hear me. But praise God, He brought me to m...

For Today - April 20, 2009 Outside my window or in my case, my school room door... the sun is shinning and the birds are chirping. It is a beautiful spring day. I am thinking... about the end of the school year and looking forwarded to a simple summer - that is my new philosophy!! I am also thinking about my children, Bailey and Alec, and wondering what the future holds for them. I am thankful for... my family, my friends, and my faith. From the kitchen... I am thinking about what I will cook for my Church family on Wednesday night. This is my opportunity during the week to be hospitable to the people the Lord has placed in our lives to minister to. I am wearing... my favorite color shirt...lime green and tennis shoes because I am down in my back and need the extra support even though it is not very attractive with my black dress pants!! I am creating... hopefully godly children and lasting memories with my fourth grade class. I am going... to the chiropractor today for my back and th...

As I went to church this morning, I went there very defeated. It has been a long week with LOTS of up and downs, and spiritually, I was not where I should have been. During the song service, the Lord got a hold of me like gravy on rice...and I was sincerely broken. Our song service began with the hymn "Because He Lives." That is when the softening began. Because He lives I CAN face tomorrow - even with an autistic son, even with a hurting back, etc. etc. It was all I could do to get the words out without weeping. The next song we sang was "The Power of the Cross" - As I sang that song and really focused on the words, my heart truly began to break and I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. Here's the chorus - The power of the cross, Christ became sin for us, took the blame, bore the wrath, we stand forgiven at the cross. The chorus alone will do you in when you really focus on what that song is saying. It really put a new light on my petty situation...my pr...

As I continue reading about the Duggar family I am continually amazed at how they live their lives and how they teach they faith to the children. Some may hear about them and think they are a bunch of weirdos, but I say give me weird over worldly any day!!!! I need you to process that this family lives totally debt free and live quite well. What an amazing testimony to praying and seeking God's will for your life. They have convictions, they stick to them, and God honors their endeavors. Wow! Lately,as my husband and I struggle within our own family (and right now we are "struggling" with a hormonal 13 year old who is very impulsive and an 11 year old hormonal autistic son), we have regrets that we did not have a bigger family. He had a vasectomy right after our son was born - our kids are 17 months apart and he didn't want to take any chances. That is a discission we have come to hugely regret. Then 4 years ago I had to have a complete hysterectomy. We have talked of...