Tuesday, September 7, 2010

My Downward Spiral Day

My picture of a downward spiral!!!!

To say that today did not go as planned would be an understatement!!!  This is definitely going to be a "poor my heart out" post.  I will probably ramble and not make sense at times so bear with me. 

As you know, I have been homeschooling for a few weeks now, and it has been going great!!!  Well...really good... most of the time!!!  Things are always a little tough with my Alec, especially my un-medicated Alec!!  But we have been making progress as we make changes to help with the day - the schedule, the curriculum, etc.

Things with the girls have been wonderful.  Bailey is verbally admitting her enjoyment of homeschooling. This is a huge accomplishment from spewing venom!!!!  They enjoy their day so much, especially Science...

which... brings me to the downward spiral part.

Today I found out that Sydney won't be coming back.  Her family has decided to go in a different direction, and she will be starting regular high school tomorrow.  BRUTAL does not even being to sum up my feelings.  I am not upset with them...I love them, but I was very taken a back...to say the least.  And Bailey...I have no words.:(

All that being said, I know that God is faithful, and I know that He is in control.  And I know that satan wants nothing more than to defeat me, discourage me, and discombobulate me, and sadly, I allowed him to do that today but not tomorrow!!!! so I am hoping that anybody and everybody that reads this will pray for me - for my commitment to homeschooling, my kids, to remember what I am doing and why, for strength and patience, and for God's amazing grace in Bailey's life.

I feel like I will be starting from scratch tomorrow, and that is okay because I know God has a plan - a better plan.  My "plan B" has been His plan all along.

Happy Homeschooling (that was hard to write - lol)


1 comment:

  1. You are so right...your plan "b" was His plan all along...how comforting is that!!

    Im so much at a loss for words, I just don't even know what to say, but I am praying over here!