|My picture of a downward spiral!!!!|
To say that today did not go as planned would be an understatement!!! This is definitely going to be a "poor my heart out" post. I will probably ramble and not make sense at times so bear with me.
As you know, I have been homeschooling for a few weeks now, and it has been going great!!! Well...really good... most of the time!!! Things are always a little tough with my Alec, especially my un-medicated Alec!! But we have been making progress as we make changes to help with the day - the schedule, the curriculum, etc.
Things with the girls have been wonderful. Bailey is verbally admitting her enjoyment of homeschooling. This is a huge accomplishment from spewing venom!!!! They enjoy their day so much, especially Science...
which... brings me to the downward spiral part.
Today I found out that Sydney won't be coming back. Her family has decided to go in a different direction, and she will be starting regular high school tomorrow. BRUTAL does not even being to sum up my feelings. I am not upset with them...I love them, but I was very taken a back...to say the least. And Bailey...I have no words.:(
All that being said, I know that God is faithful, and I know that He is in control. And I know that satan wants nothing more than to defeat me, discourage me, and discombobulate me, and sadly, I allowed him to do that today but not tomorrow!!!! so I am hoping that anybody and everybody that reads this will pray for me - for my commitment to homeschooling, my kids, to remember what I am doing and why, for strength and patience, and for God's amazing grace in Bailey's life.
I feel like I will be starting from scratch tomorrow, and that is okay because I know God has a plan - a better plan. My "plan B" has been His plan all along.
Happy Homeschooling (that was hard to write - lol)